Can't say I know exactly how you feel, cuz I'm not you.
But I think know this feeling. Who am I? Who would I be if I didn't do this job?
Leaving the job was like jumping off a cliff into the darkness. I'm still falling. I might have changed into something else, something that drifts slowly, flattening, twirling, rippling through the air...
But the whole thing is an illusion, a metaphor to manipulate and try to make sense of this mess of feelings and wishes all tangled up with bills and mortgage payments. I have no idea who I am.
Way back in the early/mid-90's, when I used to hang out on talk.bizarre, billbill once asked "who would i be if i didn't eat cookies?"
I try to remember that question when I need some perspective.
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Date: 2005-08-30 07:45 am (UTC)But I think know this feeling. Who am I? Who would I be if I didn't do this job?
Leaving the job was like jumping off a cliff into the darkness. I'm still falling. I might have changed into something else, something that drifts slowly, flattening, twirling, rippling through the air...
But the whole thing is an illusion, a metaphor to manipulate and try to make sense of this mess of feelings and wishes all tangled up with bills and mortgage payments. I have no idea who I am.
Way back in the early/mid-90's, when I used to hang out on talk.bizarre, billbill once asked "who would i be if i didn't eat cookies?"
I try to remember that question when I need some perspective.