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[demiurgent]

I'm not doing well.

Health wise, I'm fine. But I'm exhausted, I'm anxious, I'm depressed....

Worse than all that, I'm crabby. I snap at people. I surl. I snark. I'm just not fun to be around.

I was on the road for the Academy for twelve hours yesterday, then out birthdaying with friends (it was one of their birthdays, not mine) until after midnight. But I didn't go to sleep until after three, and then up by seven.

Note, I didn't say I couldn't sleep. I said I didn't sleep. I clearly didn't want to.

Between not much wanting to move (I have a gout attack in my knee right now) and having work to catch up with, I was at my desk from 8 in the morning to about 9:45 at night, inclusive. I don't think I even took a bathroom break -- though I did go through unproductive waves during the day. I am truly, deeply worn to the bone, anxious, nervous...

But not asleep. My eyes are half-mast, but I don't want to sleep.

I don't want to sleep. I don't want to wake up. I don't want to leave the apartment. I just want to exist here.

I'm just not doing well.

Comments

yarg

[(Anonymous)]

8 am to 9:45 pm, and no bathroom breaks... good grief, that's almost as bad as working at Wal-Mart. Except there, they'd only pay you for 8 to 1.

I hope things get better soon for you. At least that you get a good night's sleep. Or a vacation. Or a new job.

Gary O.

[dansr.livejournal.com]

::HUGS::

To some extent I know what you're going through (especially regarding work), and I empathize.

There is so much going on right now for you, I can see why you just want to exist.

Remember we care about you, and we love you, and that this too shall pass.

Still, a little extra help doesn't hurt, right? Throwing some good thoughts and healing energy your way, straight from the Goddess of Perk!

Much love!

[freakfest.livejournal.com]

I'm right there with you, baby. Sending you warm hugs, happy thoughts, and positive energy to get you through this. And you WILL get through this, because you're stronger than you realize. Besides, we'll be needing you in a few years to help intimidate Molly's suitors.

*hugs hugs hugs and more hugs*

[masonk.livejournal.com]

Have faith, Bro. The weekend is upon you. Take the phone off the hook and let someone else have the beeper, and hide in your cave.

[edg.livejournal.com]

Hm.

It struck me today that I hadn't heard anything from you in a while, and looking back, I have - but nothing really personal since this. Are you feeling any better? Is there anything I can do to help?