Me.

[demiurgent]

So, I've been depressed. Very depressed. With anxiety, and some sleep issues. And various stress issues. This is why you haven't heard much from me in a while.

When I've needed to get people to make sure I didn't do myself a disservice, I have gotten people. And, I've sought assistance. And they've started me on a chemical they hope will help.

It's not easy, but we're trying.

On the bright side... despite massive overwork (I had forty-two meetings last week, and somewhere near that number this week) and exhaustion, stress and the aforementioned anxiety and depression, I managed to finish the fifth chapter of Theftworld this week. It's up at my writing page if you want to have a look. (Bug me for the username/password if you don't have them.)

We survive. We continue. We measure out our lives in coffee spoons.

Comments

[edg.livejournal.com]

And T.S. Eliot?

I'm glad to see you post. And I'm glad to see that you're still productive, even in times of super-stress. (I wish I could say the same of myself; no matter how much I want to write this week - and I've wanted a lot to write - I can't get anything out.)

Have you seen any luck regarding appealing the HMO's decision about the bypass?

[demiurgent.livejournal.com]

Sadly, not yet, though it's looking more like a technicality we can beat. We'll see.

And yeah, I'm feeling decidedly Prufrockian.

depression

[pir-anha.livejournal.com]

getting help is very good. you're not feeling like it, probably, but i think you are doing really well considering all the difficult circumstances you have to deal with.

42 meetings is nuts. that you can be productive at all is a miracle.

depression & theftworld

[(Anonymous)]

Hopefully, the new chemical will help with the depression. Now if you could just get some trap doors to help with the meetings...

As for Theftworld, I haven't read chapter 5 yet, but I just wanted to mention I finally did get through the prologue & chapters 1-4, and they were really good. I'll try to post more specific commentary on the writing page soon.

Gary O.

Depression

[genchaos.livejournal.com]

I know you're not a fan of happy fun brain altering chemicals, but speaking as someone who got a double whammy from both sides of the family regarding the joys of depression, sometimes they're necessary. Positive feedback when you're feeling shitty makes you feel shittier and just leads into a downward spiral. And what's at the end of it..... *shudder*

Heck, I *know* if I could cope with all the crap you're going through, Eric. I have my own plate of crap, but you seem to have it in spades with the stressors. (Forty-two meetings? Are they high?) Given everything, I hope this stuff helps get the screwed up funhouse mirror depression filters everything through straightened out at least some.

Peace.

Re: Depression

[genchaos.livejournal.com]

Er, I know I couldn't cope with the crap you're going through. My brain, it farts like a windstorm tonight.