Desperately reaching for air

[demiurgent]

I am rather psychotically trying to keep good spirits about this whole bastard process, but it's not working. The State of New Hampshire is actively interested, and say that over 50% of these decisions get overturned in external appeal, but they won't actually go to that stage before the internal review at Cigna takes place. The internal review could take 15 days for a phase 1 review, 30 more days for a phase 2. Either way, we're not going to be done reviewing by the nineteenth, which is when Dartmouth Hitchcock needs to know if they can reassign the surgical slot.

So, unless Cigna does an unexpected about-face, I've lost my slot.

After the storm of the last two days, I went out today and discovered the plow had packed my car in tightly. I tracked down a shovel (mine having been in a barn that was torn down earlier this year) and finally dug the car out. This nearly killed me. I'm not in shape for it. I wanted to throw up, lie down and die. My knee is throbbing like an ice pick had gone into it. and, to look at the job I did, it's like I didn't even start.

I got into my car, and the battery was dead. No lights were on, which means the battery's dying.

I can't dig out my car without dying, but they're questioning the medical necessity of the surgery.

I am trying to keep good spirits about this all, but right this moment it isn't working. Right this moment I am pissed as Hell. I am angry. And I am maudlin. I want to die.

Fortunately, thanks to Cigna, I'm on track to get my wish.

Comments

[harukami]

Not gonna let you die, hon. If worst comes to worst, ask for donations. We all want you to live, you know...?

Any chance of a loan, if worst comes to worst and whatever we donate doesn't cover it?

Seriously. You're a good friend. Have to weather this, somehow...

[masonk.livejournal.com]

You can't die, Bro. I can't afford to go to Maine for a funeral.

[freakfest.livejournal.com]

Dammit, Eric! First my grandmother dies. And I know these things happen in threes. But you ARE NOT going to be number two or number three. Nope. I won't allow it.

Do we have time to do an LJ fundraiser so you can go under the knife as scheduled?

Cigna fuckheads.